I know, I know... I'm the worst at updating my blog. My usual excuse was that I never had much to post about. Now I have a baby who changes every day and I still can't post!! I just read my last post and had to laugh. I can't believe that almost everything I wrote has changed. I have so many pictures, unorganized as usual but cute to say the least.
Some updates:

• Loves bath time
• Eats every two hours, even through the night.
• Sleeps in and loves her crib. She has a bath at 8 and we get her to sleep around 9-9:30. She has a long stretch of sleep for about 4 hours, then she gets up every two hours to eat. We're working on eliminating one of the feedings. About every other night, she will wake up every 45 mins, meaning I get up, rock her back to sleep, get up rock her back to sleep, get up feed her then rock her back to sleep. Repeat till 7am
• Weighs 12 lbs  90 percentile
• Height 23.5 inches  75 percentile
• SO happy in the morning! She has the biggest smiles and such cute sounds and squils
• Talks to herself and thinks she's pretty funny
• FINALLY started taking a binky at exactly 2 months old. She sucks on it long enough to take the edge off, then spits it out when she's calm.
• Still doesn't take a bottle
• Still prefers to be held, but she can sit on her own for a while at a time throughout the day. I still rock and sing her to sleep for naps, though. She will have none of the 'cry it out' sheesh. She stands her ground and never budges
• She is a champ at holding that head up. such strong neck muscles
• Being naked is top notch in this gals life. loves it

 Sadly, one of the only pictures from Halloween. She liked the pumpkins once we got candles in them

 Happy girl in the morning

 What? Nothing..what do you mean?

 Oh yeah, Cali had a puppy :)

A week after she turned one month, I noticed that her right eye wasn't aligned with the left. I'm lucky enough to have a mom who listens to every concern and can talk to the right doctor for me, so after she talked to an ophthalmologist I quickly made an appt with a pediatric ophthalmologist at children's hospital in knoxville. Sometimes a child as young as Malan may need surgery before two months in order to fix the problem. Malan has Transiet Exotropia... her right eye deviates outward. Luckily she won't need surgery but if the muscle doesn't get stronger by december, she will start glasses and a patch. I feel like her eye is stronger and I can see that it's correcting itself.  We will know for sure at the beginning of the month.

I love having this little girl. I'm lucky she is all mine. I struggle sometimes with how high maintenance she can be, but I feel like I was hand picked to handle it. I want to do these hard things for her. I do it for her.

3 weeks already?!

We have learned a lot in the past 3 weeks. Bringing home a new baby is possibly the scariest thing i've done. I feel like I have no idea what i'm doing! Nobody really tells you how hard the first couple weeks are. She is already so full of personality and my heart just aches at how much I love this lil chick! Our daily goal is getting to know what she likes and what she doesn't.

      Here are some things we have learned and love about our baby girl:

• She eats every hour to hour and a half -which makes for looong nights
• Like her mama, she hates her feet touched
• She adores her daddy
• Not a fan of bath time
• Loves to be held. She will fall asleep ONLY if you hold her, and wakes up within mintues of putting her down
• She thinks the ceiling fan is pretty fantastic, we could look at it all day
• LOVES tummy time. Her little muscles are already so strong
• She gets the hiccups at least twice a day and they make her angry
• She's like her dad... loves to be naked
• Starting to get the hang of the night and day thing {ish}

It has been so fun to watch and learn with her. I feel like she changes every day. She is still the prettiest baby and has the best spirit about her. It actually makes me a little teary eyed {like that is anything new} 

Introducing...

Malan Kelli Rabe

08/21/11

7lbs 10oz 19 inches

 Blake and I are so excited to announce that our little girl is here! She is such a blessing to have around our home and we already love her little spirit.
I was scheduled to be induced on August 19th...but the hospital had other plans. We went in at midnight to be checked in and start the process. But someone dropped the ball while scheduling me AND the rooms were full with girls that were actually in labor. Our doctor was less than thrilled to say the least. So, Blake and I drove the hour and a half home. I was so disappointed. I expected to have a baby that day and instead, went home. I was rescheduled to come in at midnight on the 21st.
I didn't sleep the entire first night in the hospital.. the anticipation was killing me! I've always been so afraid of labor and I was only hours away, or so I thought. I ended up going into labor on my own! My doctor planned to start the pitocin that morning but I had already started pretty intense contractions after my water was broke. They were coming only a minute apart and starting to put stress on the baby. Malan's heart rate would drop and my blood pressure would go too high. So the anisthesiologist insisted I get an epidural to seperate the contractions. I had 1/8 the amount of a regular epidural because I was too afraid to go all the way numb. It spaced them out to only 2 mintues apart.
A few hours later, it was time to push! I pushed for almost 3 hours. A few stretched ligaments and an episiotomy later, Malan was here! She was born at 5:57pm.

She is a very healthy little girl and has the funniest faces! I can't tell who she looks like yet, but I know she is a gorgeous girl! Her eyes are so light, her skin is olive like her daddy's and she has the best sounding cry. That sounds funny, but she is squeaky, and I love it!!

Hmm...

Wow

I should update this...

        Maybe tomorrow

                                                        Love me anyway?

LMU-DCOM

Lincoln Memorial University- DeBusk College of Osteopathic Medicine

Blake started his first week at medical school! The first 4 days were orientation and a ton of speed reading classes, just to get them warmed up. Monday was his first 'real' day of school. Mondays are anatomy lab for him, which he loves! He is so far ahead of most students who have never seen a cadaver before. Turns out Weber State prepares you pretty well who knew ;) He came home with a box of human bones to study and we've already purchased all of his equipment (opthalmoscope, a glass eye to practice on, BP cuff and whatever the ear scope is called). I like to play with them until I remind myself how expensive that stuff is. Not to mention the 1300 dollar computer they require... it is so dang fancy! Also, a BiG shout out to Trent who is providing us with a semesters-worth of medical gloves so we don't have to buy them! Woot Woot!! Thanks, you saved our bacon.

He is loving school now that classes have started, he was very anxious to get going during orientation. All he does is study now... that's it. He leaves early early, I have dinner ready when he comes homes, he eats then goes to read till he comes to bed. I have a lot to get used to.

The school's campus is gorgeous! The med school is by far the biggest building in this town and it sits up on a pretty hill. The University part of campus is cool too. All the buildings are old old brick that makes each one look like a house. There are civil war bunkers around campus, too.

We think we'll love it here :)

Just some thoughts

Now that Blake is in school

I will have a ton of time to blog.

Who knows how often I really will, my guess is that i'll quickly fall behind
Since I will have nobody around to take pictures with, I decided I will blog thoughts.

I think i'm generally a funny person

So hopefully I will find it less of a chore to blog

Today I went grocery shopping for the meal we're going to feed our new friends tomorrow night and realized when I got home that I would rather put 10 grocery bags in each hand than make two trips to the car and carry them in.

Anyone else?

My hand was killing me and I even stood there in my driveway for a minute deciding on the better choice for me: make the two trips or pretend to be strong and act like I can find the house key first off and make it all the way in the house without dropping something...

Well, I chose the second one and toughed it out. almost

I ended up dropping a jar of sauce all over the porch that already has bugs.

Lesson learned

maybe...

Also... How many times is it appropriate to ask 'what' before you just nod and smile because you still didn't understand what they said?

Tennessee so far...

Blake and I are loving this house! I was so excited when we found it and thought we got such a great deal on it. Now that we're living in it and have seen other students' houses, we KNOW we got a great deal. The down falls i'm learnig of Tennessee? Bugs bugs bugs! Everywhere! The spiders are the size of the shoe I use to kill them and it seems all the other crawly-things are on steroids too. Also, obviously, the humidity. It's unbarable! Our towels don't dry off after we use them and my skin is always sticky. I can't walk to the end of the driveway without dripping sweat (which is actually saying a lot since our driveway is at a 90 degree angle).

The town we moved is small, but so gorgeous! The tress are tall and so green and the hills are covered with everything pretty. The people are so dang friendly! It's true what they say, don't go to the store here unless you've got an hour or two! People just talk your ear off about nothing and I love it! We've met some friends from Blake's school and some from church. We alrady belong to a softball and a soccer league and have a neighbor that texts everyday :)

Our Back Yard :)

We already miss evveryone from home and hate not having parents around! We can't wait for some visitors ;)